Author: Swati Sani

Futility

Move him into the sun–
Gently its touch awoke him once,
At home, whispering of fields unsown.
Always it awoke him, even in France,
Until this morning and this snow.
If anything might rouse him now
The kind old sun will know.

Think how it wakes the seeds–
Woke, once, the clays of a cold star.
Are limbs so dear-achieved, are sides
Full-nerved,–still warm,–too hard to stir?
Was it for this the clay grew tall?
–O what made fatuous sunbeams toil
To break earth’s sleep at all?

— Wilfred Owen

Reminisces

Leafing through the pages of my past, I came across some verses we wrote to one another. The long distance romance those days had its own charm, there was no internet, no mobile phones and the salaries we earned spared us only a couple of hundred rupees to be spent on STD to talk twice a week to each other (we were also trying to have a decent bank balance to spend on our wedding).

That only left us with one option – write to each other daily. We would pour our hearts out on thin white, pink and blue sheets of paper which are still lying in the first drawer of our cupboard.

Some day, when we are gone, perhaps our son will find them and read it fondly.

A nifty LJ trick – verrry useful

To ban a user:

* After you delete a comment from any LiveJournal user, a checkbox shows up that lets you ban them. If that is selected, that user will be unable to leave further comments in your journal.

* If you want to ban a specific LiveJournal user without having to delete one of their comments, you can ban them using the Admin Console (http://www.livejournal.com/admin/console/). First, make sure you are already logged in, then go to the console and enter this command:

ban_set < user >

Kids talk – this generation

Before we left for our walk we had a small conversation:
Me: Aasim Shut the windows
Aasim: Windows is Shut
Me: NO, windows are not shut, Please shut the windows before we leave
Aasim (a bit emphatically): Windows is shut, I even switched off the monitor.

And i wanted him to shut the windows in his room….

At 35, I feel 22 :)

Not a day more… I know thats something my husband wont agree, but then, who listens to husband anyways 😉

A (Promised) rose garden to be in full bloom by July, A Norah Jones CD and A Dirty Dancing CD – gifts collected so far. Mom yet to come, but I know she is getting a blue Lucknowi dress for me.

The cook took an unexpected off so we went to Tuli’s Afgani restaurant for Lunch. Looks like will go again for dinner somewhere, Tarique says he forbids me to cook on my birthday.

Trust or no trust

This.

Its not only makes business sense to start a relationship basing on the premise of *not* trusting an individual – it also makes a lot of sense in social relationships.

Not trusting to me is an act of self preservation. For me, in any In a transaction or a relationship, I have to know where I stand. I also need to know where to place my stop loss and when to increase it or let it go – For this I need to start with a -ve balance of trust and let it grow.. if it crosses the line and starts creeping towards the +ive, I know I can invest more.

This has always been my basis of any transaction and I feel it will be true for most people who value themselves and till date most of the relationship that matter to me have a positive balance.